quitter

 I took him for a Halloween Hunt. Half the way he lost his patience and wanted to quit but I encouraged him to keep looking for hints and finish the game. He got his reward and we walked to Hyde Park for hot chocolate. "Did you graduate any university?" he asked out of the blue. "I quit just before getting my diploma. It's just a paper that means nothing." And then I told him that I also left my relationship because I wanted to travel the world. And that I quit the job as a commis chef that I was supposed to start tomorrow. 

"You're a quitter, aren't you?".

 I didn't tell him that I wanted to quit being his nanny, too. I was exhausted, mentally and physically. He didn't have any Halloween costume but to me he was a vampire, my energy was stolen and I felt dead, so I didn't need any costume either. Later we met his mom but I didn't even feel like chatting, I just wanted to go to bed and forget about this world. The world that surely I didn't fit in.

"You left it on the whole day." She said showing me the waste disposal very hot as somehow, rushing to catch the train with the boy,  I forgot to turn it off. I didn't lie, I really couldn't remember I did that, my head was spinning faster than the blades in the sink. But the boy stood behind us and jumped into our conversation: "No mom, I did it!". I looked at him with my mouth open and he muttered to me: "Shh, I'm saving your ass!".

The monster took my side making me question my decision. To quit or stay and fight with my monster?